You’re sweet, you know that.
Thank you so much. x
Do you ever have a sudden urge to fall off a cliff or is that just me.
I absolutely hate those nights where i feel so lonely.
You know, like i have no one at all, i mean i know that’s not true but still i’m on the verge of crying because i still have that feeling anyways.
I hate it.
Self harms interesting isn’t it?
How there’s different ways to do it.
There’s scratching, pinching, burning and cutting.
Plus so many more ways that i haven’t named.
How in that moment you need to feel pain, sometimes you need to get your mind off something so self harms there to help that. People don’t understand why someone would want to hurt themselves, how that even helps. I always reply with letting them know that they wouldn’t understand unless they dealt with it or did it to themselves.
Now i find it quite funny how hurting yourself on the outside seems to help the hurt the inside, but it does. Sometimes i don’t even get the urge to do it, i just do it because it’s something that’s become such a normal thing.
I’m in that moment and i cause that light moment of pain which is really just left a sting after a while and i began to regret it. I get this sick feeling that leaves me hating myself for doing such a thing. Like i let myself down and i question why no matter how many times i tell myself i won’t do it again, i do. But that’s how self harms interesting.
It helps you but messes with you all at the same time. It gives you some kind of power over yourself but causes you guilt and hatred for your actions. It gives you this way of thinking that you’re fine and that this act is normal, when really you’re going mental. It’s all a sick little game that after a while begins to become a chore and now you’re stuck until you find that light that pulls you out.
Now the twist it just how long are you willing to play until you find it?